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I have shared with you that I rarely post any book reviews on this blog. I put most of my book reviews in my Goodreads account. He Came to Set the Captives Free, which Rebecca Brown Yoder wrote, is one of the extraordinary books that I think is essential for me to share through my blog.

What is so special about this book?

First of all, I am pretty romantic with the way I got a beautiful book recommended to read. There is always a story behind the most amazing book I have read. He Came to Set the Captives Free was recommended by my church pastor (which I haven't shared with you in detail) in our bible studies last week.

I searched for the book through Amazon Store on my Kindle. However, the book is not available to be bought in Indonesia. Unfortunately, I had to download the pirated ebook, but I promised to buy the printed copies from the US and forward the books to my Christian circle.

When I read the first cover of the book, something inside me spoke that this was not an ordinary book. Therefore, I knew I needed to pray and ask God to protect me and help me understand the book's content. Whenever I stopped reading the book, I would have the same prayer before rereading the book.

Was I becoming very paranoid? Pray before reading the book, and you will understand what I said.

The Story is About...

He Came to Set the Captives Free is a non-fiction story from a Christian doctor who had a close relationship with God and kept bringing her patients in prayer.

By reading this book, you will understand that Christianity is not a religion but a way of life. How do you have a total commitment to have Jesus, the savior, as your priority and to avoid life from sins. Satan used our sins as his gate to enter and destroy our life.

Even though having a life free of sins seems impossible, Jesus's death on the cross forgives every sin. As long you admit what you've done is wrong in front of Jesus, have a close relationship with Jesus, and repent, not do the same mistake again.

The author gave us the testimony of what she had done in the way of helping the top bride of Satan who repented into Jesus Christ, our savior. From the description, we know that Satan is near us, in our daily life, even in places you never thought of before, i.e., the church and music rock band.

Will you sacrifice for others who you know in the battle with Satan? Are you willing to pray, fast, and share shelter for the captives who need freedom and needed to be saved by Jesus, our Savior?

The Reflection

The book struck me and made me reflect, do I have the right choice? Do I have a trusted Christian circle? How about my family? Is there anyone into a contract with Satan? How about my grandparents and ancestors? Was there anyone related to this Satan circle? Am I visiting the right church?

FYI I am gifted with dreams and interpretation. Occasionally I can have dreams through my sleeping, which usually have a meaning. My mother has the same gift also her uncle. After reading the book, I pray to God to remove any Satanic relation within me in my blood, in the name of Jesus Christ.

I am more sensitive now and check 'new' information which looks and sounds like Christian values. Is it true for Jesus Christ's glory or just a disguise from Satan?

Satan's Disguise

Primbon, Horoscope, Zodiac, Palmistry, Hypnotherapy, and the World Meditation (which asked you to empty your mind, I had a terrible experience with this too) are not Christianity values. Heresy is anything that does not put God as the first ruler and priority in our life.

'Christian' Meditation

Moreover, do you know why I am writing this in the middle of the night, at 2 am? I woke up from the bad dreams of listening to the acclaimed Christian meditation, which is popular on Youtube and Spotify. Once I woke up, I shouted in the name of Jesus Christ to stop what Satan wanted to do and to break anything evil that tried to enter my mind.

I checked again about this 'Christian' meditation company, but there is no detailed information about who they are. It is suspicious and also dangerous. You do not know what words or something infiltrated your mind in the middle of your sleeping. I also checked the words spoken in that Christian meditation I listened to halfway, which said to ask 'God' to present in our dream.

If you are a Jesus follower, you will understand that it is not required for us "see" God with our visible eyes. John 20:29 said, "Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” What is essential for us, the Jesus' Followers is that we know God loves us. Jesus' death on the cross and his resurrection to redeem us from sinful life.

I wonder who this 'god' is mentioned in this 'Christian' meditation Youtube channel. Thank you to God who awakens me from this Satan's disguise. FYI this is not the first time of me listening to this 'Christian' meditation program. However, at this moment, I am in a time of fasting and prayer to be able to listen to God's voice. God let me understand His message, in part of me also finding and reading Rebecca Brown Yoder's book He Came to Set the Captives Free.

Satan's Followers in the Church

I also found what Rebecca said about Satan's followers who are involved in church is a match. We have read news of pastors who failed to be a sample of God's representatives on Earth. They abuse their fame and charm into wealth and adultery. Be careful when you know the new church who put their pastors in the spotlight, only telling you the prosperity gospel and sharing motivational speech but lack in prayer groups and bible studies, not acclaim that Jesus Christ is our savior and redeemer.

Also, be careful with the ability to speak in the tongue if there is none to interpret it. Always check your bible yourself if the pastor told you a bible verse. Be diligent in reading the bible and have a close relationship with God.

Ambiguous 'god' in the Song's Lyric

I also checked the phenomenon of young people coming to a 'Christian' concert. Do they sing the Christian values lyrics? Does it mention Jesus Christ as the savior, or is it ambiguous who is mentioned in the song's lyrics?

I can't tell you her name, but I found a singer who created songs and sang Christian lyrics, but it is ambiguous who is the 'You' she mentioned. Why could she not say it bluntly and out of loud it is Jesus Christ, the Savior?

And, of course, we need to filter out song lyrics that we know already have curses and bad words. We are what we read and what we listen to. It created bad influences on our life.

Godly Offspring

Can you imagine how difficult it is to build a family and raise children in this world if our family does not have a close relationship with Jesus Christ, our savior? Therefore, choose your partner carefully, and make sure two of you understand the marriage's purpose and why we need to remain close to God.

With God, everything is possible! Thank you, Rebecca Brown Yoder, who wrote this beautiful book, an essential book to read by people who claim to be Jesus' followers. I am grateful that God came across my pathway to being able to read this book at the right time and opened my "eyes" about the Satan's disguise in this world.

In Jesus' name, by Jesus' blood on the cross, we are the winner. God is the ultimate truth, ruler, and the Universe's most powerful force.

Jakarta. 7 July 2022

Our Last Survivor

Pustakawan Mendunia has been 2 years and the vision keeps going!

I have this (weirdly) urgency to leave a legacy in this world.

I want to have a little token from me to give a glimpse of hope, a better world, in my capacity. What is my capacity? I am a librarian by profession and I have a passion for reading, literacy, and librarianship. I find this is rare even between my circle of alumni. I am blessed to be graduated from the best university in Indonesia with this major, and passionate about it too.

Then? What shall I do?

The Past

Years ago, when I was in Jakarta, my friends and I were helping a community library nearby Ciliwung River. When I left Jakarta for a job in Surabaya, the library activity was stopped. Since then, I am terrified to join or build a community if there is no one to continue the initiative.

When I joined a youth community to teach kids in the remote areas in Mimika Regency, Papua Province, I still had this in mind. I need to make sure that even though I am no longer there, the community may survive. However, it is not easy to find an idealistic person, with the same view, and has perseverance as me. This is not boasting, but I had tried to find that person/s for years.

In Papua, I still have that positive mindset, as long as we were working on the same children and the same projects, that would not be a problem. But, it had problems then. My vision is idealistic and not compatible with others who thought of our projects lightly and did that as a matter of having fun. I am serious about teaching the students with a well-managed preparation and program. For others, why am I making it so difficult?

Then it came true, the moment I left the community in Mimika Regecny, the activity was collapsed! The community is no longer active. I moved out to Batam.

Leaving a legacy is not that easy. A good deed is not enough.

Therefore, I make sure to be more careful in Batam. I would not join any community if I know the people's values are different from mine. At all. At all. At all. Nada. I would not join at all. I met several communities in Batam, tried to attend their gathering, or joined one of their programs. However, I found out that these people only taking this as a matter of having fun and to have something nice to be shared in their IG feeds.

The Present

Enough with the lesson from the past and I make a promise to myself.

If I can't find it, then I will make it.

I will make my vision happen, and that's how Pustakawan Mendunia comes up 2 years ago. I still have that urgency to have Pustakawan Mendunia as a legacy, and this is going to be continued by the next visionary librarian/s. Even though I am retired or meeting my Father in heaven, I still wish this vision keeps going.

I am building my path on my way there. I make contact with Library Science students in UI and Uncen. Students are the key to a better future, and they shall realize that through our profession we may touch people's lives, help people to unleash their potential, giving hope, build a better world for everyone. However, most library science students do not realize their strength that well.

Therefore, I am delighted that we just finished 9 sessions with Library Science students in Universitas Cenderawasih, Papua Province. At the first moment, I really hope that this meeting would help the library science students bridging the theory they had in college with the reality in the working environment. These sessions are free, they do not need to pay anything. However, the number of attendees keep reduced until our last 2 meet up. Only Ridho and I were there in our last 2 meetups.

The Future

Future is something that we can't have yet but we can plan to.

I am feeling sorry for Papua who doesn't grab this opportunity well. Our learning session is only temporary until December 2020. I am not really sure about next year because I have a lot of projects to do with my planner.

However, I appreciated what Ridho has done and I could see his spirit of learning is so strong. After some consideration, I offer him to be part of Pustakawan Mendunia team, at least for a year. If he is willing to. And yes, he is very happy and almost ends in tears. Before, I really hope at least there would be a Papuan student standing until the end of our session. But there is none.

If you read what I have read in "The Past," you know for sure that I am very careful to make decisions about the community. Therefore, having someone get into Pustakawan Mendunia is not really easy for me. In a way to open the path of Pustakawan Mendunia as a legacy for the future, I have to overcome the fear. I need to mentor the next/another Pustakawan Mendunia, and it begins from Ridho.

Let's see.

Batam, 12 December 2020.

Greatest Barriers

Having a dream is free for everyone. However, from my reflection, there are 2 barriers which ruining our dream :

Ourselves
Listening to people who said we can't

My life is like a boat and it never sail on the calm ocean. It keeps wavy, but I would not be a person who give up to the storm or the big waves. I keep going.

As I child, I was a rebel. At least in my mind. Born and raised in a strong patriarchy culture as Bataknese (you may read my previous writing here), my barriers were my parents. So that, once I was in college, I got my freedom to say: NO. Since then, nobody could force me to do anything which is not reasonable or out of my common sense.

Been in Papua for 5 years, I grasp the essence of life: Love in a humble life. Some things might happened out of my common sense, in the term of God's perspective. This is something that we could not predict. I learn to live in faith, "in the God's time". I become a more reflective person, I found me. I am blessed to have this understanding very early, before my 30s.

Then I come to the conclusion again, the greatest barriers for your growth are:

Yourself
Listening to people who said you can't

I felt bad for my little brother who was not allowed to choose his dream college, because of the circumstance. My parents were lacking in confidence of him. They ruined my brother's self-esteem. This is something that we could not overdo, since the result of the university exam has been published. Yes, my brother is accepted in a good national university, but it's not his dream college. He was crying on the phone when I called him at midnight. I have difficulties for sleeping this whole month, I do not know if this what what you called a 'sign.' I think my little brother felt terribly sorry about himself.

The Power to be able to Dream is Very Expensive

Having a dream is free, but to have that power to allow yourself to be able to dream and go for it, to pursue it, to give the best effort for that, it's coming from yourself. Nobody could replace you. It shall coming from you. Hundreds or thousands of people might said No. However, it's you who define yourself. Are you just like what these people said about you? Or are you the person you define who you are?

I just choose the second option. I define myself.

Last month, our book club reading Laskar Pelangi, or the Rainbow Troops, which is written by Andrea Hirata. I read Laskar Pelangi twice. The first was in Bahasa Indonesia, then I just finished the English version for my book club's. My first time reading this book when I was in college. I just enjoyed the story as a fiction based on real story, oh yeah. It was another adventure story about kids. However, in my second time reading this, I read this in a totally different perspective. I worked for 5 years in remote place, not the capital city of the province. Moreover, I met these bright beautiful children who had limited access for education not because of lacking in the facilities, but in their own mindset.

Lintang gave the Rainbow Troops courage to dream! Something that Ikal dan the other troops never dare to think that further. There are more possibilities for them out there, and they have people who believe in them: Ibu Mus, Pak Hafan, and Lintang!

How to Response when Somebody Sharing His/Her Dream with You?

Said thank you. It means that you are a very dear for that someone. If you heard his/her dream kinda like giving you to response by answering "Really??"; better you hold your tongue.

For my brother's case, I felt sorry about him, because I was away not in Jakarta when the family made decision. They just decided and reported the result to me. Just like the old days hahaha (this sarcasm btw). However, I told my brother that the power to be able to dream, this is a blessing where not everyone has it.

Not everyone encouraged enough to think that they are actually able to reach their dreams by effort and working hard on it. Not everyone brave enough to see themselves as helpless and they are not capable (yet) in way to reflect, and see what else I can do to make myself do better.

My parents are not blessed by this traits. They are very simple and practical. Living a permanent life, doing good, working hard, life is good enough, and that's it. I told my brother we could not blame on our parents but that's how they are.

What Would You Do and How is Your Plan?

Therefore, I asked my brother, what would you do and how is your plan? He told me that he would having the next's year university entrance test. I told him that he has the chance for a year preparing and working hard for that. I also shared my failures and the turning points which shaped me as the current me. Moreover, I told my brother, even for me, life is not ended as just like these days. I do not see myself graduated with a bachelor degree from library and information science as the end of me. I do also have my goals. It needs effort, and I am working on it.

Like what I believe, we shall be a role model to people we love. If I encouraged my brother to be a person who is brave to dream, then I should be a person who is willing to dream and surely make the efforts on it. I told my brother that he always has his brother and sisters, and me as the 'out of the box' sister to share his stories and worries with. I am glad to know at the end of our conversation he felt better, and we prayed. I told him, never feeling alone, because nowadays, God's answering people's prayers in various ways. God might be not talking to you directly but God's words could be delivered through other people.

Some people mentioned that 'luck' is the most important aspect in someone's success. Good for me, that I do not believe in luck. You might work hard, the effort was there, you might reach for your dream, or might be not. Not because you are not capable (after those all hardworking and labor), but we are limited in our perspective as human. God provides you with even better result. This 'secret' would be unfolded once then we would say, "Oh, that's why..." hahaha. But yes, it usually take a long time until we reach that reflective mode on.

I wish more children and people in the world have the same opportunity, to have that power to be able to dream. There is one quote that I really like,

“Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss it you will land among the stars.”

Amen.

Batam, 28 August 2020

In the Beginning

Dear readers, on November 2017 our youth community in Papua was invited to give presentation to introduce our program in Singapore. We had a lot of discussion and under a pressure whether this was going to be presented properly and in good ethic or not. To be frank, the accommodation to go to Singapore should be self-funded, none could support us. Not even our parents organization.

For years, literacy action already a dominant priority in my life, so that I offered to be there. My purpose only to make sure our presentation and who we are (our organization) would be presented well and there was no hidden agenda behind it. This was how I put the organization as my priority in life.

Ms Rose from WAREIs

Afterwards, in the session at Singapore, our presentation moved the attendees's heart. They asked if there is anything they might help or any possibility for us doing collaboration. In further conversation through Facebook, they asked if they would like to have a conference in Indonesia, where shall they make it?

I replied that conference that taken place in Jakarta, Bali, is so common and no longer interesting for people in Asia. Why don't try something new, something different, such as Papua? I suggested Jayapura, because it is a capital city of Papua Province, they are blessed with magnificent scenery and natural resources, they have numbers of youth communities which involved with people.

My suggestion was accepted, and there I tried to be a help, as a bridge to meet this Singapore Entrepreneur Community with youth community in Jayapura, Papua. IYFP (Indonesian Youth Forum Papua) said they agreed to join as part of the committee of the conference. At the moment, I lived in Timika, Papua and that's why I committed to Ms Rose from Singapore Entrepreneur Community that I would give my best to help this event run well. I made promise that I would attend the conference. Timika to Jayapura is only 45 minutes by flight. The event would be held on September 2019.

The Challenges

The committee just arrived in Jakarta

Ok, if you read it in my previous posts in this blog, you'll realize that I made decision to move out from Papua. So how would I still contribute for the conference? I explained to Ms Rose that I moved out not only from the city also from the our youth community in Timika, Papua. Everything was told openly for her because I preferred to have everything clear. Ms Rose was really supportive and insisted that I had to stay and involved as the committee.

So that, as part of the committee, the team was going to Jakarta on August 2018 to have presentation in Indramayu. Ms Rose asked me to join them in Jakarta but regrettably I could not attend the presentation day. They made the presentation in weekdays where I still working in Batam. However, I could join with them from Saturday to Sunday. I asked whether she still want to meet our youth organization's founder, and she was agreed. So that I set them to meet up in Jakarta. Kind heart Ms Rose offered to reimburse my flight ticket from Batam to Jakarta but I refused. I would like to have this journey as part of my voluntary action, ethically. This was only a little contribution I could share as a part of introducing Papua in positive spotlight to people from overseas country.

When the conference was going to be held, it became our mutual agreement that every resource speaker should cover their own expenses. They are included your flight ticket and accommodation to reach Jayapura, Papua and returned home. Again, I tried to fulfilled my promise and be responsible as part of the committee and flied all the way from Batam.

Ms Rose through her networking was able to invite Miss Indonesia 2015, Ms Maria Harfanti. Our event went well and we had 60 youth attendees from various Papua communities. Hopefully they were inspired to do further and brave to be part of Papua's positive movement.

The Promise Keeps Going

We are going to have the next conference in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia this April 2019. From my location in Batam, for sure Kuala Lumpur comes closer and easier for me to reach. However, how about our friends from Jayapura, Papua?

To reach KL, we need 5 hours direct flight from Jayapura-Jakarta, plus additional hours to reach KL from Jakarta. Garuda Indonesia Airlines flight ticket offered one way flight from Jayapura-Jakarta with SGD 600. It is more expensive from my previous round ticket Batam-Jayapura (SGD 700).

Papua committee is looking for sponsors to help buying their flight tickets from Jayapura to Kuala Lumpur (for 3 people). However, for me, I need permission from my principal since I have not work for 1 year yet. Hopefully my boss would let me have 2 days off for the activity. Furthermore, I also would have my expenses to Kuala Lumpur under me.

The whole conference preparation is made by Kuala Lumpur committee. After the second phase, we are going to make the third in Singapore. So lets see and fingers are crossed for us to continue this collaboration. Hopefully we could build and expand our view as part of Asian youth movement, to improve our community better. Remember to put your best effort in fulfilling your promise and you will surprise to see where it's going to take you.

Batam, 15 March 2019

Run after the Time

How old are you now? Based on Asian circumstance, age becomes a ghoulish phantom into women's free-single life hahaha. The older you are, these questions would asked frequently, "When are you going to be married? Who is your boyfriend? Do not stay in a relationship too long, get married." and so forth. Asian women have those pressured questions asked from family, friends, acquaintances, or even strangers, LOL.

Why does it seem we, women are in hurry of getting married? Women reproductive system is working in certain time and it will be ended in menopause period. We are going not to able to be pregnant and bare infant after the menopause time. So that's why if the women would like to have babies by birth, we the single ladies, 27 years old and above, feel almost run out of time.

Will You Exchange Your Dreams?

Several of my female friends postpone to chase after their vision in life and exchange it into marriage. The others, prefer not to share their success and growth in their career just in the term not to make the spouse feeling's offended. The rest of it even blame on themselves when their relationship is failed because of women's lack and thought low about themselves. Male perspective pointed out us visionary women as too dominating, please.

If you, the male do not love us that much, just be with it. Never begin any relationship with us at the first place.

Marriage is a Choice

In my opinion, to be married or not is your choice. You could even choose a free life, move in together with your boy/girlfriend not to marry him/her. I choose to be married but it doesn't mean I am going to marry anyone, whoever as long as the man want to marry me. I find this is ridiculous.

I am open the chance to anyone who is interested in me, but be selective who is the right man to be my long lasting spouse. Ladies, never be hurry in getting married just because you feel you are in 'that age' already. Take your time, and see if the man in front of you really love you.

Love never hurt you. If your current man do something harmful to you i.e. say harsh words to you, hit or kick you, or even cheat on you, immediately leave that person, ASAP. Do not make excuses for him, saying he might be too emotional at that moment, or as it is your fault. Better to leave that useless man now before it is too late.

Never think about: you already known him for years, both your families know each other, people in your circle recognise you as lovebird etc. You might be worry that you could not find another guy recently to "fill' up your target to get married this year. If you are in this kind situation and read it, again let me emphasise: leave that foolish man. You deserve a man who loves you, treats you as human, and respects you as an essential part of his current and future life.

He is That into Me :)

I do not know how male could describe their love, if there is any love in man perspective, lol. How I see love is : accepting! You accept the whole person of your spouse. Including being supportive for his/her dream. So, if a man truly love me, he will not ask me to leave and bury my dream and exchange it with marriage.

I wrote How to Manage Your Eros Love in this blog previously to discuss further about the unconditional love. In my radical, idealistic, naive perspective of love, this condition should be implemented both sides. Not only me to the spouse, but also from him to me.

So that, if I ever listened any complain from male side who mock me to become too ambitious, intimidating, or dominating, I would say that man is not going to be an important part of my life. When a man is lack in confidence, it is not my fault but his problem.

Moreover that insecure man is not worth of my genuine love and invaluable time. And yeah, we have to admit this harshly to ourselves, "He is not that into you." It might be a title of a book and movie but it is damn*d true.

If he is that into you, you will see and realise that :

love never hurt you, and
marriage will never be your finish line of dream

Wish us to have a spouse who has infinity love towards us, genuinely.

Batam, 6 February 2019

Life is a Series of Your Decision

Life is a series of your decision making :)

Dear all, currently I am in a middle of a project which has to make me visit Singapore at least twice a month. I could not tell you in detail as a matter of privacy. It is a challenge for me to put my schedule and prioritise things around.

I could just sit, enjoy, and relax with the peaceful life in Batam. However, my heart said "NOPE" lol. Something inside me is furious. That laid back life is not a living for me. I demand for challenges, I need advancement in life. So that's why I am proactive to dig deeper what would I do aside from my expertise in librarianship at school in Batam.

If everything has confirmed, for sure I would share it in this blog. Meanwhile, please be patient and let me share about my current finding in Geylang East Public Library, Singapore.

Find These Beautiful Gems

I am so happy had a visit to 028 DDC Shelf in Geylang East Public Library, Singapore. The library provides several interesting books about librarianship, :

A Library Miscellany by Claire Cook-Starkey
The Meaning of the Library : a Cultural History edited by Alice Crawford
What to Read and Why by Francine Pose
Bibliophile : an Illustrated Miscellany by Jane Mount

and here I open the first book : "A Library Miscellany" by Claire Cook-Starkey.

The book size is just perfect, in a fit size of your palm where I found it is very comfort to read it while laying on these 'grass-a-like' carpet. The font in the book also convenient to read, and the most important thing is: the content itself.

The author shared us knowledge where I even do not know as a professional librarian for years: Charlie Darwin's Library Collection, famous librarians of note (including Mao Zedong and Lewis Caroll), and unique story about library books' theft. The theft was jailed and banned for visiting any library in Britain, such a lol.

A Librarian's Alphabet

Moreover, the author shared a charming poem, composed by M.S.G.H (it's a mysterious initial) which appeared in the Cheltenham Ladies' College Magazine in 1933.

O All you young librarians, come listen unto me
If thoroughly efficient bibliographers you'd be.
But should the ensuing alphabet too long and dull be found,
You can fasten on the following: much Sense and little Sound.
And though all's not librarianship, you'd argue with your betters,
They're inextricably mingled, are the arts of life and letters.
Be...

Accurate, alert, ambitious, accessible;
Brief, business-like;
Clear, consistent, cautious, critical, capable, conscientious, calm, courteous, considerate, charitable;
Direct, diligent, dauntless (it's dogged as does it), disinterested;
Exact, enterprising, enduring, efficient;
Far-seeing, fearless;
Gallant and gay, never guess;
Honest, high-minded, humble, humorous;
Impeccable, imperturbable, industrious, independent, intensely interested;
Judicious;
Knowledgeable;
Lucid, legible, liberal-minded, level-headed;
Methodical, mindful of manners;
Neat, noiseless;
Orderly, observant, obliging;
Proud, prudent, precise, painstaking, persevering, punctual, patient, polite;
Quick, quiet;
Reliable, resourceful, reasonable;
Sound, sensible, steady, sane;
Trustworthy, thorough, tireless, tactful;
Understanding;
Veracious, versatile, vigilant, vigorous;
Wise and wart, a worker;
EXperienced;
Young (always);
Zealous.

I found it's just so sweet there was someone who put his/her mind to make a poem based on librarianship spirit. In my opinion, this book is must to have in every library in the world, moreover it's published on 2018. So that the content inside is very informative and current. The miscellany world of librarianship is already opened for us librarian and book lovers. Reading this book feels like I am finding a home :D

Singapore, 26 January 2019.

Took picture with my love in Kampung Abar, Jayapura

Dear my loyal readers,

I shared this hastag #hatitatinggaldiPapua innumerably in Facebook, you also may review the Hati tatinggal di Papua song VM here :D It means you left your heart in Papua. I don't know how and why, it just occured. I worked in Timika, Papua for 5 years and traveled to other cities around Papua : Wamena, Manokwari, Jayapura, and Merauke. It affected me that much so that I have to admit: I am falling in love with Papua!

My besties in Timika, the survivors till the end : Sis Esti & Uswa

There should be a remarkable existence about Papua so that I was metamorphosed! I was transfigured splendidly within my remaining time in Papua. I respected and valued life at the most, I was touched by modest thing in life, I felt I am loved, my life is meaningful, I am worthy, how noble these kindhearted people are. They were willing to share anything they had, be my family when I was away from my hometown (5 hours flight to Jakarta), where I encountered my passion, I discovered my home.

However, after 5 years determined for good cause in Timika, I had to pull out an accord. I moved out from my former working institution. I could not reveal the reasons here, based on ethical concern. Do not worry, I did my finest endeavour in working in Papua and made a very logical and firm decision about this. I tried my luck to propose another job in Jayapura but there was no phone call, not even for any interview session. My prayer always there, no day spent in Timika without prayer, I really wish I could reside and work in Papua. I sealed all my prayers with "Thy will be done."

Unchanging love :*

I see, it seemed abstract for some of you, but that's how I viewed life. We, could requested any substance and material which we assumed we desire it, or essential for our life. However, God's intention for each of us is more than that. Our purpose living in this Earth is so GRAND! You can never predicted or even imagine, God ALWAYS arrange something GREAT for each of us, as long you are doing positive things in life genuinely, be honest, and put a lot of effort in anything you work at. It looks like an utopia for some people, but that's what I believe for years.

When God answered my prayer that I have to relocate to Batam, what can I do but accepted it? I put my faith in God, God promote something GREAT for me, whatever it is. Even though until the day I am writing this post, I declare myself repeatedly, I couldn't make headway from Papua. I am FALLING in LOVE with Papua.

Hilarious point about love is, we can never predestine with what (or whom) we may fall in love. It's not me who choose want to fall in love with Papua. Never, I just got into curiosity in 2013. I visited and traveled 4 main islands in Indonesia : Sumatera, Kalimantan, Java (for sure), Sulawesi but not Papua (yet, at the moment). Moreover working as librarian and did voluntary actions in Papua education unquestionably forged me, and voila I identified my passion!

Books & Library Week 2017

First time arrived in Timika, I was brokenhearted. I had no confidence to trust anyone. I thought I was going to work as a librarian professionally, managed the library only. However, my principal asked me to do additional assignment, it was something never explained to me in the beginning. I have to manage a library session for every grade, including the parallel classroom, from kindergarten until junior high school (grade 9). I felt deceived, because I was not expecting this, and I had no experience to work in a school. My previous working institution was in the office special library and records management area.

I forced myself, I had to master this! I researched through the internet, and I was blessed to have a very good friend, Rabbi Ade who gave me a sample of library skill syllabus from USA. I learned, even lucky enough to had Kurikulum 2013 training which uncovered my creativity. There are a lot of improvements you can develop through library session, to increase students fondness in reading. That was how I developed my skills and passions in literacy.

Then, how about my broken heart?

Jelita, my inspirator in Kampung Abar, Jayapura

My brokenhearted curer is the children's genuine love. I treasured it! It is marvellous how children could love us! We are someone who they do not know (we are not their family or relatives), but they love us, unconditionally. Children's pure love surely heals the brokenhearted T.T

My five years in Papua is so momentous and deeply meaningful in my life which I can never forget T.T

Furthermore, I have to face the reality now. I moved to Batam since July 2018 and have not decided yet how long I am going to sojourn in Batam. What can I do in my limited capacity and power to fulfil what my heart always craving for? My love to Papua? Hopefully this is not the end, but it turns out to be a comma... and have a trust God strengthen me in order to pursuing God's GRAND design in my life.

Jesus loves you, Thy will be done :*

Batam, 25 September 2018, 00.10 (GMT +7)

Happy birthday to me. Another path of my life have passed. I'm 23 years old right now. It's far enough from being a teenager anymore. But also not old enough to be called as a mature. I'm not a girl not yet a women-Britney Spears said. Good thing to have a birthday in the last time of the year is, I can make an evaluation about my life and think deeply about occasions that happen a long the year. Of course lot of things happen this year. And I could say that 2010 is one of my best time ever.

I learn more about my own character, lesson in life, and new experiences also new friends and surroundings. In ordinary point of view, other can say, my life is not running well and there are some obstacles around. In beginning I'm wondering also, there's 'not-good' things happen in my life. But like I said in the first sentence, it's just an ordinary point of view. It's just me, the ordinary human wasn't understand anything about God's plan. Actually God is awesome, God's plan is marvelous, it's just me who don't understand.

Now, when I did a little flash back, those are good things for me. Those brought me to another journey, grew to develop to be a better person. Made me able to feel more new experiences. Without my past there will no current me now. I'm growing by all the incident whether it looks like good or not. Maybe you have already read my past post in these year, how's my life up and down and the pressure I had before.

It's still a long journey for myself. Not only to be a better person but also to reach my dreams. Also I hope I can help the poor people to develop a better life even though by the smallest action I can pursue. I realize that life is not about only myself. How pitiful if I think that this world is that shallow.

Life is broad, there's a reason why I was born in this earth. I have mission and the mission is not only to have a good education, get a good career, have a wealthy life, married, have children, have grandchildren, and died peacefully. There should be something more than that and I'm still looking for it. Like I said before, it's still a long journey, and quote from The Beatles-It's a long and winding road.

Wish me always the best. Cheers :D

Why I really want to see Angkor Wat, in Cambodia? It was last December, I was watching a very tempting channel for travelling, National Geographic Channel. Please beware watched NGC, makes you keep on dreaming HAHAHAHA. The show was about the top 10 most amazing architecture in Asia. And the winner is Angkor Wat. Before watched the show, I was thinking that Angkor Wat is not very different from Borobudur Temple in Java. I was totally wrong!!!

Angkor Wat already reknown by the world and UNESCO as one of the World Heritage. Why?? It's because the architecture is very different, and you never imagine how an Angkor Wat is made!! Like me, I was surprised also. TOTALLY SURPRISED!! So from NGC, I knew that Angkor Wat was made (by ordered King Suryavarman II) in year 1200. King Suryavarman II wanted to make a sanctuary, the most beautiful, biggest, and highest ever in Cambodia. He ordered to make Angkor Wat to protect him after all sins he already made in his life. Through Angkor Wat, he wanted to died in peace and be in heaven. And also, it is believed, that once Angkor Wat wall was covering by gold WOW!! So, Angkor Wat was very sparkling in 1200 I think. Angkor Wat development was magnificent also. Do you know that actually Angkor Wat is floated on the water???

King Suryavarman II hired an architecht, believed he was the one who designed Borobudur Temple also. By King Suryavarman II order, Angkor Wat was made on 12 hectare by people hands, there was no technology like bulldozer at that time! AMAZING!! It was floating, very huge, made by very big stones, covering by gold, and made by human hands... OMG!!! Can you imagine the development, how graceful Angkor Wat in 1200??

After King Suryavarman died, the capital city moved from Angkor Wat area to Angkor Thom, and Thailand attacked Cambodia. Angkor Wat was forgotten, even for 400 years (but how can you forget Angkor Wat??) Angkor Wat was hidden by forest, totally its beautifulness was hidden. Until then, Herni Mooth Out, a france scientist hunted in Angkor Area and find Angkor Wat in about 1960. OMG!!! And now, we can appreciate Angkor Wat, how's magnificent people works in ancient time. And makes me more crazy to come to Angkor Wat soon... Hopefully :D

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